Life and Death of the Addict (continued)

Conversations about addiction

Mud

What is the "quagmire" in its original direct sense? Dal defines this concept as follows:

"The quagmire is a floating shaking marsh, a shoal, a quaking place, where the soil, overgrown with marsh grass and moss, is waving, and the water protrudes under the foot ... It's dangerous to walk: the leg sags, the elastic layer sweeps the pit and sinks."

It's dangerous to walk ... So, better not to step on this dangerous place ... Yes, the townspeople do not know such places, and not every village has swamps and swamps near it. But there are bogs in cities and other residential areas. And one of them is dangerous, shifting, ready to swallow a reckless person - narkomany.

Hook

The first initiation to the drug is everyday and simple. A classmate in a school toilet or an older guy approaches the boy (and even - to a girl) in the yard of the house and offers to smoke a simple cigarette instead of a "grass". But besides - b e splatnu! Just in a friendly way.

- Kaif you will feel stunned, - he promises.

One immediately bites on "buzz", the other croaks ... The third will give up straight.

"I'll manage without kicks ... I've heard what kind of payoffs are for him."

But the one that promises buzz, does not retreat so simply.

- Yes, do not be afraid, nothing will come of it once, you will try - and that's all, - persuades the "friend" (which is worse than the fierce enemy). "Everyone smokes!"

All? This argument seems more convincing than anyone else. Indeed, is it worth lagging behind "all", although these "all" are only a certain group, ready to experience "buzz" at any cost.

No, about what will happen to him in a few years ... even - in a few months or weeks! A potential addict is not warned. And he himself does not think about it. If I thought, would I be reaching for the poison?

Especially easy to attach to narcotic grass are those guys who have already started to smoke. I smoke ordinary tobacco, - thinks such a teenager, - and - nothing ... Also frightened! I'll try and weed ...

And he takes a cunning cigarette into his hand ... He brings it to his mouth ... A light of a match or lighters flashes ...

And the newcomer lit up.

Have you seen, Reader, how to fish for bait? Maybe he himself caught ... But all the same, let's remember this process together.

Take the worm, tear off a piece of the desired length from it and plant this live bait on the hook. You throw a fishing rod and wait. Aha! The line was twitching. Take it!

And now - a fish on the shore. It's beating, twitching, fluttering ... If she could live human feelings, then, probably, she would have deeply regretted her frivolous and gullible aspiration for a cunning delicacy. But - alas! Late ... Fish are removed from the hook and thrown into the bucket. And from now on her short life will pass in a narrow space, and wherever you touch, you will come across either the same poor fellow or the wall of a bucket.

Is it worthwhile to take an example from this - not the gold one, but the most ordinary fry, unable to assess the possible danger, or help yourself after getting into trouble? ..

You, probably, hurt the comparison of a man ... a cheloveka! With an unreasonable fry. But! Comparison is really the point! I do not mean all people, but only those who thoughtlessly swallow the insidious bait.

For a hungry fish, a worm serves as a bait (and sometimes - just made of thread or cotton wool mormyshka).

For someone who is trying to draw into drug addiction, the promise is "booze".

Kaif! Is free!

No, a gullible newcomer will still pay for this buzz. Repeatedly pay! The narcotics dealer will wait ... He knows that you will come to him ... Creep! With money and with a bow: "Save, help!" And he, of course, will help you take one more step into the quagmire of drug addiction. Then - one more ... More! .. And then you'll understand that a free cigarette with grass was baited on a hook, and you turned out to be a stupid and greedy fish swallowing it.

What is addiction?

Stanislav Gursky responds to this question.

"This is a bad habit, a painful addiction to use in various ways (swallowing, inhaling, intravenous injection) of narcotic substances in order to fall into a drugged state."

And if your friend (or the one who pretends to be your friend) told you:

"Try the drug." You will experience a buzz. But then you will become a slave to this senseless passion: drug addiction. You can not think about anything except the drug. You will not desire anything except a drug. You'll even go to the crime in order to get money for drugs ...

With such a truthful "invitation to kicks" would you smoke grass or sniff heroin?

No. I would not. You're an intelligent person!

But about the impending slavery of a drug addict, he who promises a narcotic buzz will not say. You will learn about this from your own experience.

The first part of the mnarkotku - the ectopy of the shah r tr y s s y y. Cobolism. M. C onalbum. Krennye sermetti.

"The drug will allow you to experience a buzz" ... So says one who offers you to take the first step along the harmful path of drug addiction.

Kaif? Maybe you will. Why: "Maybe?" Because not everyone experiences even a short pleasure from the use of the drug.

If a person has a normal reaction to poison, then the body declares itself to drugs not "high," but a protest: nausea or vomiting, headaches, dizziness, abdominal pain, a general unpleasant condition.

A teenager is upset: you must ... Others experience a buzz, but here ...

But, if you think smartly, the beginning drug addict should not be upset, but rejoice! Yes, he was lucky. After that "buzz" with nausea and headaches, what he experienced, whether he would like to once again smoke a cigarette with marijuana or sniff heroin?

Clever and independent to be satisfied with the first experience and will not want to repeat "pleasure". But he who lives by someone else's mind and chooses his mentors ... No, he does not choose anyone! This is his choice of the recruiter of future addicts. And the unfortunate newcomer, tormented by pain and almost crying not to lag behind the others, pretends to be satisfied with the first probe of the poison. And - reach for the next portion. I will finish this chapter with a simple and clever aphorism left to us by the Roman poet Manilius, who lived two thousand years ago:

C o n e c t i o n t i o s t h t h h a c h.

Kaif

What does a novice addiction feel by inhaling the poisonous smoke of marijuana or another drug if his body does not reject this poison?

The state of dope is a state of illusory bliss, a kind of spiritual imponderability, when nothing oppresses a person, does not disturb when everything disappears, what is now accepted to be united by a word: problems. It becomes easy, pleasant, carefree ... Everything around starts to like. And the main thing: a person starts to like himself! Whatever it was before the drug, now it feels strong, smart beautiful. It seems to even add to the growth! And all around him, it seems to him, appreciate him and respect him.

It's getting fun. I want to dance. Often, narcotic dope is taken before a get-together, so that its action is further enhanced by music, company, dancing. And energy - more than usual, you can dance at least until the morning ...

However, the same drug acts differently on different people. In some consumers, the drug causes a surge of energy and energy, a desire to do something, a creative upsurge. Others - inhibition, relaxation, indifference, something like a half-moon ... A person sometimes tries to say something, but his speech is incoherent and reminds the murmur of a drunk, almost insane person.

Here's how the drug addict tells about her feelings (from the book of Strelkov).

"I smoked anasha. I got dizzy. The fog clouded his eyes. But it became pleasant and fun ... laughed, although it seemed ridiculous, it was nothing. No, it's all funny! For this and take drugs. "

However, the action of the drug can not cause gaiety or peace of mind, but quite different emotions! Sometimes a drug addict experiences unreasonable fear, even panicking, painful hallucinations. He is pursued by some freaks, terrible, unreal animals with burning eyes, insects swelling up to the size of a dog, and the like ... Here is a "buzz" that infects the sick imagination with a real horror.

Not without reason in the Eastern countries, knowing well about the harmful properties of drugs, the sleeping papaya, from which opium is obtained, is given the names: "devil's grass", "devil's medicine", "Satan's eye", "green dragon" ...

What sensations a person experiences under the influence of drugs was vividly described by the famous French poet who managed to escape from the cannabis shack and told how this drug carries his victim "into the disgusting hell of vice" (the treatise on the addiction "Artificial Paradise").

"Many believe that the intoxication of hashish is nothing but a magical land. The Bolshoi Theater of clever conjurers ... This prejudice, absolute confusion. There is nothing miraculous about hashish. First you are covered by some strange irrepressible gaiety. These bursts of laughter, which you are almost ashamed of, are repeated often, replacing the moments of stutter, during which you vainly try to collect your thoughts. These bouts of fun produce an impression of real insanity on any stranger.

Then a strange sense of coolness turns into a cold chill, concentrated mainly in the limbs. Hashishman falls into a state of apathy, his unreasonably bulging eyes seem ready to crawl out of his orbits, his face covers a painful pallor, his lips are cramping, his thirst is drying his mouth and burning his throat. The feeling of suffocation forces the chest to do more than human efforts, and from time to time a tremor permeates the entire body, causing it to make uncontrolled movements, shudder, twitch. "

Narcotic poisoning does its destructive work from the first test, but its symptoms do not all clearly manifest themselves. My head is spinning? So what? A little nauseated? For the sake of high you can suffer ... The guys say - there will be a buzz! That I'm not like everyone else?

Endurance to deviations from normal circumstances of life in people is different. One bathes in an ice hole, the other gets cold with an open window.

Here is an excerpt from the leaflet of the regional center for medical prevention and rehabilitation.

"They say:" Drugs give life a variety and brighten it up. "

That's how the former drug addict answers this question. "First, of course, brighten up. It seems something new, interesting ... My friends from anonymous drug addicts, you know, as they say? "One time is always a lot, and thousands are always not enough." This is because when the first time something was accepted, the next day you scold yourself: you must, why you just contacted "high" - had fun so-so-so, and now the state of health is not very, yet the grandmother protorchal. And once again I want to accept - well, to regain well-being and conscience to muffle. And it begins: "Everything, today is the last time," for tomorrow - "No, today is the last time", etc. And it stretches, drags on ... Variety is worse than in the army: in the morning stood up - it is necessary to make a lot of money, Buy, bought - must be accepted, accepted - it is necessary to sleep ... And day after day, day in and day out ... It's really not fun. "

The one who offers to "try the weed" for the first time ... or - already in the fifth ... (free or - already for the money), should honestly warn about the payment for the pleasure. Not about that payment by rubles or dollars for a drug ... On another payment! On the suffering that will entail "herb" or heroin or even some stinky glue that you will inhale, thrusting your nose into the cellophane bag.

But who, promising high, will talk about the bitter consequences of this buzz? No, the consequences of a drug addict will eventually be tested and appreciated by himself, on his own skin.

In the meantime, he hesitates. Yes, there is no getting used to the drug, but the desire to repeat pleasure already appears. And the guys persuade.

"Do not be afraid!" They do not get used to the grass. Now everyone is smoking! Fashionable! You go to the party - you have to recharge, and then you will not experience the buzz of the present. Well - was he scared? I'm smoking and - nothing ...

A cheap podnachka will magically affect the weak-willed. My mother had a similar proverb for such cases: "Listen to the devil - cut off your nose." Clever will not be cut off, but ... But not all smart!

Here is what the children's psychiatrist MI Buyanov writes about this.

"Remember: you can become a drug addict when you want. But you can stop being a drug addict only when you can stop being him. Can only a few can. The rest perish, but, avenging humanity for their weak-willedness, for their worthlessness, they accustom to drugs of other people. "

Tried a drug? Already felt the attraction? Can not you cope with this attraction? Call for help! Rather !!!

Confess to your parents in your misfortune. Tell her about the teacher, which seems to you the most human. Go into the office of anonymous treatment ... Resist! Resist this clawed tyrant who caught you on the hook of curiosity and now draws closer to squeeze in agonizing embraces and ruin.

From parents and other senior family members, a novice addict tries to hide his addiction to drugs. He understands that it is a shameful thing: to take drugs. In fact, it's a crime!

Crime against himself. For the addict at a certain stage becomes a murderer - the murderer of himself.

Crime against parents and other loved ones. Parents raised him, hoped for his help in the future, connected with him (with her) his ambitious hopes: "The son (daughter) will grow up, achieve success in life, we will be proud ..." And suddenly instead of pride - shame and horror ... Addict !! Rolling into the abyss of disease, mental inferiority, early withdrawal from life ... The only! (Most often now - the only one).

When you tell your parents the truth, they will scold you. Mother, perhaps, will make a tantrum and fall into despair. Father will be horrified. The teacher will be indignant: "You're crazy!" There will be trouble ... But all this is such a trifle compared to the "white death", which already draws bony hands to you. Run away from it! Run to those who help you get rid of the drug hell.

"Trying" a drug is like trying to jump from a high-floor balcony. This is doom!

However, there is some difference. The jumped from the balcony (with a rare exception, when the jump is not fatal) there is no chance of escape. At the addict - is. And the more chances, the earlier he will understand, that threatens him.

I will quote from the book of Strelkov the story of a teenager who escaped from a drug quagmire - with the help of parents and doctors.

"He was making a cigarette," Sasha told me, "and something green was scraped into the tobacco. I refused because I did not smoke at all. Well, the guys started to shame me. Coward call. I had to try. Nothing was pleasant. Only for some reason everything around became somehow greater. Soccer ball - with the globe. Then he vomited and got sick. I still used to smoke ... I got used to it. Taran began to demand money. I had to give back to those that I collected on the cassette. My father found out and ... In a word, that's how I ended up here - in a psychiatric hospital. And Taran, as I heard, will now judge.

- And how are the other guys?

- Taran gave the rest only for the first time. He did not. Only I was treated to Valya, there he was, he was sleeping with his back to us. Then I understood why. In addition to us, no one could pay him. And my parents are rich. And Valka's father works as a chauffeur on international routes.

- Do not you regret that you got here?

- No, - Sasha smiled, - not at all. Now I can see from what I escaped. Only time is a pity. But nothing, two weeks later we are discharged from Valka. "

Was Sasha out of the captivity of drug addiction? We do not know his fate. But the first one is very difficult! Step to normal human life he helped doctors do. The fate of a lot depends on him.

C h a r n a n t h e t t h e n t t h e n t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t; C o n s e s s e s s e m o n t h o t t h e t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t t;

"Оmеlеl and hоh аbоth оf thе hаlkоlkоpеr thе thе thе thе thе thе mаrk thеrе".

(Seneca)

Who is guilty?

This question inevitably arises when a person gets stuck in a bad ... In a very nasty story! However, there is no direct and short answer to it. And least of all the addict blames himself.

And who is to blame? Culprits as long as you want! Here are some.

Curiosity.

Friends (let's try a drug).

Fashion (everyone is smoking weed!).

Parents (did not buy vidic!).

Fate (this is generally a universal culprit of all ills) ...

However, if you think about it, all these (and many others), which seem to be independent of the addict, just close on him.

Curiosity ... A powerful incentive! I wonder what a person feels under the influence of a drug.

And what does a person feel when hitting a car, you're not interested? You do not want to test these feelings from your own experience? I guess the objection: "Why, in a collision with a car you can perish!"

Right. But even from narcotic poison people die! Only, as a rule, not immediately. The agony is stretched for several years.

So curb your curiosity. About what drugs are and how they devour a person, it is better to read in books.

Friends? You choose your friends yourself. From those who are trying to drag you into a terrible drug addiction, stay away.

Fashion? It's common to go to a get-together party under the buzz ... And you come without a narcotic buzz and look at your face with those who took the "dose". Looks addict very unattractive! We will give the floor to Urakov.

"Reddened or pale face, sweating. The face has a greasy coating, the tongue is covered, the skin and mucous membranes are dry. Sometimes excessive salivation. Attention is drawn to the special glitter of the eyes. The pupils are either sharply widened or sharply narrowed. Actions, as a rule, are sweeping, the gait is unstable, with staggering. Speech is indistinct, inconsistent. "

And this is for yourself! - A person turns himself into such a monster? Well, well ... And still considered an intelligent being!

Parents are to blame ... After all, taking drugs, you can annoy ... you can take revenge! To your relatives! Parents did not want (or could not?) Buy a motorcycle or a tape recorder. They scolded for bad grades. They are not allowed to go out with friends until midnight ... Well, wait!

A drug addict's son ... A drug addict's daughter ... Yeah, you can not think up a brutal revenge what to say. But you yourself from this "revenge" what you get? Yes, I better give an anecdote on this topic.

The son-in-law was very displeased with his mother-in-law, who, it seemed to him, was always nagging at him. And he decided to take revenge on his mother-in-law. And revenge chose this: he put out his eyes! And gloating: let this grouchy mother-in-law have a son-in-law curve!

Did not want to take revenge? Another reason? Which one? Ah, I tried to get away from difficulties ...

Even for my little sons and daughters, life is not cloudless. Everything was good, good and suddenly ... The girl that you like, rejects your attention ... The father left the family ... At school, the teachers "pick" and put the deuce ... The guy you are friends with, bought a great, and you do not ... Yes, In the life of trouble! The sun in the sky and that does not always shine: both clouds swam, and storms strike ...

"I do not want!"

"I do not want trouble!" They are very bad on their mind.

- Do not want? So there is a means to get rid! Here, try: light a cigarette.

- Yes, I do not smoke ...

- And you try!

Right! He smoked marijuana, and all the troubles seem nonsense, and life - easy and carefree. For a few hours…

However, we will continue to search for the perpetrators of narcotic addiction.

Fate!

But people build their own destiny. Another thing is that the circumstances of life can be unfavorable. God forbid, if your parents are drunkards or drug addicts. But these defects are not inherited! You see how meaningless their life is. Build your life differently!

Of course, I did not list all the "perpetrators" of drug addiction. Another - very common! - boredom. The most ordinary boredom ...

Lessons are boring. I'm not used to reading ... I quarreled with a friend ... No domestic duties. Hobbies? And no hobbies. TV? How much you can watch it ...

Even Voltaire once wrote: "S kuka - nasashmy bolshy shoi vrang."

And here's something new: a drug. Kaif ...

But let's sensibly evaluate all these seemingly important causes of craving for drug addiction. Yes, they are not worth anything, these reasons! It's not about them. What is the main reason why a person suffers drug bait? This is the main thing about getting rid of the drug addict himself! Inexperience and unwillingness to look into the future. Lack of intelligence.

Someone will try to argue: "But drugs are used by students and people with higher education ... Well, they have little intelligence?"

- Few!

To master higher mathematics or a foreign language is enough for this. But look at the year ... for a month! Forward: what will happen to me after several drug doses - this is not enough for the mind.

They propose to smoke, but not a simple cigarette, but - it's pleasantly intoxicating, relatively expensive - b e splatn! Why would suddenly such a generosity? Is it not time to remember a simple and wise truth: free cheese is only in a mousetrap. Ah, in a friendly way? Well, in a friendly way you can.

A few times again, "friendly treat" drug addiction. And then you will be crawling on your knees for these "friends", but you will not get more free high.

IG Urakov cites in his book a quote from the material of journalist A. Trofimov, published in the newspaper Moskovsky Komsomolets.

"... One after another, drug addicts are passing in front of me. They sit down opposite and begin a long confession story about their tragedy. Everyone in his misfortune necessarily finds an outside culprit. Some scream their friends, others - friends, others refer to natural curiosity, mythical "objective" circumstances.

But if you properly understand, then they all voluntarily became slaves to their own passions. Someone can regret the victims of "curiosity" - these pale, withered girls and boys. But do not forget that they themselves, in full consciousness and mind began to take drugs, voluntarily abandoned their normal lives. "

When a drug dealer hands you a cigarette with cannabis or a dose of heroin, he knows that he is committing a murder. Murder of your intellect. Killing your body ... But that does not bother him. He makes money - big money! And does not consider himself a murderer.

And maybe he is partly right. After all, it is only sold to you packed in a paper bag or poisoned in a glass ampoule. You have a choice: to take or not to take. You in fact can refuse. Especially if this happens the first time. Acquisition to drugs occurs voluntarily (with rare exceptions).

Sometimes drug addicts are dragged into this dope of adolescents from wealthy families, at their expense to get hold of drugs for themselves. And it happens - and from evil. Already realizing that drug addiction brings much more suffering than joy, they draw into the vicious circle of their friends or acquaintances. "I feel bad ... I'm very sick! - the addict suffers in intervals between narcotic intoxications. - And to him - it's good! .. How is he better than me? We'll see how you'll be when you start pricking ... ".

The "mode" for drugs is most popular - through drug-tamed drug addicts themselves, drug dealers (you can say otherwise: the traffickers of death). They know what it is - a drug, and they themselves do not accept them with a rare exception. For such a drug - a means of gain. And when you, enriching these criminals, go to the hospital, poisoned to the last living cell with narcotic poison, a drug dealer may be able to celebrate a housewarming party in his palace house or splash in the warm sea in the Canary Islands.

One of the drug sellers was vividly described by journalist VA Strelkov.

"The head of the company was a skinny guy with bulging eyes, lying, cowardly, slippery, like a snake. Usually these people do not like. He was not loved. He got drugs, treated them, lent them. He himself did not even try, said that he had allergies (a painful sensitivity to them), but it's nice to watch how "baldeyut", others enjoy. It is not known where he got anasha and opium, but the whole company was puppets in his hands.

Each of the company owes him a tidy sum, many even with four-digit figures. And than to give? No one worked. And what income will suffice for dope? He will treat you, and you must find several buyers of anasha or opium for this. Or go on a mission to the other end of the city and hand over or get drugs.

The guilty, he punished by deprivation of the drug in the state of breaking. One of ours smoked a few packages of anasha, which he had to sell. Despite all the pleading and humiliation, the drug was no longer given to him. He bought various medicines in the pharmacy, tried to make a saving mix, but after the injection he died in a vein. We were shocked, but the drug dealer was unperturbed: "So he needs it."

A person who can not think, look into the future, evaluate the consequences of their actions, will please drug dealers. What is the main thing for such a person? The pleasure that you can get now. What's next? Well, why think about this ... This will come "later", then it will be visible.

It will be visible ... But you will be looking into your destiny, having already stepped into the quagmire. A cunning property of the quagmire, including narcotic: dragging deeper and deeper, swallowing its victim.

"In the field of co-operation, there is the right of succession to the law, Chtogo o ndo n o, n o t ol o k o n s e n s e m e n s ".

(Plato)