Life and Death of the Addict (Part 3)

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Torture

This drug-freaked state is usually defined in other words: withdrawal or drug hunger. But in the perception of a martyr-addict, breaking may well correspond to this terrible concept: torture. However, if torture, then there must be an executioner who tortures the unfortunate. Where is the executioner?

A hangman - a drug addict inside, in the body. This is the Tyrant to whom he voluntarily submitted. An insatiable tyrant! He demands his usual ... No! Its increasing dose of "dope." Pleasure your tormentor! His cruel lord.

Can not you please? Then be patient.

To suffer! But to endure there is no urine! Tyrants are merciless. The executioners are ruthless. You did not know? Ah, I just heard about it ... Now you know from personal experience.

The condition that a drug addict experiences during a period of hunger is terrible. It hurts all! Excruciating headaches or dizziness. Or both. Nausea. Vomiting. "Goosebumps" and chills, like at high temperature. The muscles begin to tremble shakily, but this small tremor at times turns into convulsions (in the people this phenomenon is denoted by the word: "cramp"). Violated normal circulation, breathing becomes intermittent, and even completely "intercepts" the throat. Often, there are syncope.

At the same time, the addict falls into a semi-unconscious state, he is seized with a sense of fear (and not a drug addict in such a situation would fear with pincers!), And there are visual or audible hallucinations: the horned monsters draw clawed paws to him or hear fierce threats: "I'll catch up !! I'll catch you! I'll kill you !!! "or some kind of heart-pounding knock.

Some drug addicts are very excited during this period, they do not tolerate bright light and sounds, they become aggressive and dangerous, as they come to unbridled rage at the slightest trifle.

However, the reaction is different. It happens that a person falls into depression, in complete hopelessness, he does not care how and what will happen next, he feels like a half-dead - half dead and reconciles with his bitter fate.

In medicine, the condition of "breaking" is called an abstinent condition. It comes from a chronic addict six to twelve hours after taking the drug.

Here's how to describe the state of the chronic drug addict in the period of breaking Urak.

"Externally: dilated pupils, copious hot or cold sticky sweat, lack of appetite, insomnia, tension and soreness of the muscles of the body, chills, indigestion, diarrhea and frequent desires on the stool. Rapid pulse. Blood pressure is reduced. Mucous membranes are dry, the tongue is coated (white, brown). "

Urakov gives in his book examples of the terrible degeneration of a normal person into a drug addict and the torture of a drug addict during a break-up. Here is one such story, true, from an "adult" life.

"Husband, little child - no one could keep Tatiana from voluntary madness. At first, when she was offered to experience a "trip to heaven," she laughed with a laugh. But one day, having quarreled with her husband, she decided to calm down with the help of a drug. For the female body, this was enough ... Left the house, leaving the family. After a while the woman already needed injections every hour. The day for her ceased to be divided into day and night. She lived from one drug use to another. Tatyana did not have any other desires.

"A child?" No, I never thought about him again. I was busy with one thing - searching for drugs. Otherwise, I was overtaken by a wild pain, breaking all the bones, tearing every muscle in the body. Normal people do not understand this, because none of them have experienced this. It feels like you are torn to pieces. I could no longer stay in the room alone, all the time the voices sounded, it seemed as if someone was watching me outside the door. But there was no relief on the street either, the killer pursuers seemed to be seen. Rest came only after the injection. "

What happens to the organism of the addict, insatiablely demanding poison for himself? In the developed stage of the disease, the attraction to the drug becomes not just strong. It becomes unbearable! It seems that every organ, no - every cell of the addict's body acquired addiction and requires: "Give it! Give me the drug! "

Drug ... Only he - the coveted enemy, is able to help a drug addict in his terrible state of drug hunger.

But here somehow it is possible to get a drug and to tame this internal tyrant with the next portion of intoxicating poison. And what? The invisible tormentor retires contentedly.

During this period of "mature drug addiction" the addict no longer thinks about getting high and does not get it. He has one goal: to get rid of another torture with painful pains, cramps and fears. To take a drug for a drug addict now means: to indulge an invisible executioner for the sake of several hours of what a drug addict considers "life."

Having received a drug, a person acquires a normal appearance and even looks refreshed. His mood changes: no fear, no apathy. He becomes joyfully excited. He is alive! He lives ... And do not want to think doomed to drug abuse, that this "life" does not last for him constantly, but is released "doses" together with a drug. Only for a few hours - until the next break-up. So the addict enters the stage of a miserable existence that does not remind us of human life.

I will give the story of a drug addict named Masha from the book of Strelkov.

"I wanted to throw myself out of the window, rush under the wheels of cars on the street ... I cried, and my friends comforted me. They did not understand that I needed only a pinch of anasha ... I beat and almost strangled my mother who made some kind of remark. "

But how the author describes her condition.

"The girl's fingertips trembled. Beat a chill. She bit her lips to the blood, so as not to throw a tantrum on the most insignificant occasion. All around became alien and disgusting. "

What is the way out of this horror? Get money any way, get a drug and be saved. And then - in half a day or a day? The same! But let the Shooters continue.

"Nobody wanted to treat Zadarma Masha. And she began to drag things out of the house. Sold out a beautiful library ... For some nyxis, she gave away her brand-new boots, gold earrings, a beautiful dress. Mother acutely experienced all this, but never complained to anyone: she considered it a shame to say that her daughter is a drug addict. "

So to a humiliating title - a drug addict is added one more, no less shameful, - a thief (or a thief). Even if no one calls the drug addict a thief, he himself knows ... He steals from his own. First - for their ... And then ... Many, many drug addicts serve time - and for theft, and for robbery, and for robbery ...

"We need to do this, we need to do this."

(Goethe)

"Supervision of the situation in the vicinity of the Earth's surface - to take advantage of the sabbatical effect ".

(Horace)

Poison

God, creating a man, did not expect that this same man would be drawn to drugs. And no mechanism of protection against drugs has not provided.

A drug is an aggressor for any organism. He attacks all internal organs and, like an evil predator, deals them his own specific blows, from which it is difficult (and not always possible!) To recover.

Imagine that the bearing of some mechanism - even in the motor of a car or a motorcycle - your foe, wishing to harm you, dropped a fine sand. So what? The whole motor will fail! Only because of the bearing ...

A person, taking a drug, "pours a malicious sand", that is, narcotic poison, in every organ of the most complex system of life. And even if not immediately, but - in turn. But it takes the organs and systems out of normal functioning.

Can you imagine that the owner of the car, wishing to harm himself !, poured sand into the bearings or into the cylinders of the car engine? No, no one will! After all for the car money is paid and - considerable.

Another thing - your own organism! Free went to spare him ... No, parents your life, your feeding and education cost much more than a car. But who, holding out his hand for a drug, thinks about his parents ... And even - about himself!

What happens in the body when a person takes this ostracized "joy", called a drug? This question is answered by Sidorov and Yuzefovich in the book: "One way road. Addiction in adolescents. "

"The first tricks of narcotic substances include, as a rule, an alarm signal. Feeling sick, nausea, vomiting, dizziness, hiccups, lacrimation, pain in the eyes, profuse sweating, anxiety, fear, anxiety - all these are painful symptoms, signs of poisoning. The body needs to be removed from the cause. Naturally, the addict begins to avoid the drug that causes such unpleasant sensations. But if an experienced drug addict is nearby, he explains that - this is a temporary phenomenon, one must have patience, and "reward" will come. Indeed, the initial unpleasant sensations begin to disappear. This means that the poison suppressed the body's defense. Its resources are not unlimited and sooner or later exhausted ... "

Buyanov writes about the consequences of taking drugs.

"Opium addicts quickly lose weight, age, sex drive disappears, memory is lost, creativity declines sharply, there is a so-called cockstroke gait, liver and kidney disease develops rapidly."

Strelkov warns:

"The most terrible form of drug addiction, when a drug is injected into the body with a syringe injection ... Action - lightning fast.

The drug, immediately after getting into the blood, deals a merciless blow to the brain, liver, heart ... "

What are the specific diseases that cause drugs? For example, the effect of a common drug: marijuana. I will list only chronic, that is long, long illnesses, which causes marijuana. Dryness of the mucous membranes, dilated pupils, weakening of vision, conjunctivitis (eye disease). Nasal congestion. Dry cough, exacerbation of asthma, chronic bronchitis, lung cancer. Chronic nausea and vomiting. Chronic sore throat. Headache. Ulcers of the stomach and duodenum. Disease of the pancreas - pancreatitis. Liver disease (hepatitis, cirrhosis). Disease of the bladder - cystitis. Irritability. Chronic fatigue ...

There can be other health problems - you can not enumerate everything, and every organism has its weak links. Unless it is necessary to tell about one more dramatic result of the use of drugs. In the future, when you become adults and want to start a family, you may have a sick or mentally handicapped child, and many men and women can not have children at all - they will be fruitless.

A healthy person, perhaps, will read the given list of illnesses indifferently, since they torture (so far!) Not him, but someone else. But if you use drugs, many of these diseases will inevitably affect your body.

What will change in your life? Let's look at an example of one very common disease: stomach ulcers and duodenal ulcers.

Everyone, even a very young man, was in pain from any scratches or cuts. Burns, sometimes - from abscesses on the finger or on the heel ... The stomach ulcer is a flaw in the tender inner tissue! And the pain with this, such as from a cut, a burn and an abscess, combined!

And what do they eat with this disease? It's hard to say ... It's impossible! Acute can not, and salty, and sour, meat can not ... I really want? Ate a piece? Here and the payment: you begin to writhe from the sharpest pains.

I will list the symptoms of one more - also common among addicts (and among alcoholics) illness: hepatitis, on the basis of which cirrhosis develops. What does a person experience with this disease? Weakness. Fatigue, insomnia, unreasonable mood changes ... Heaviness in the right hypochondrium. Losing weight. Bleeding gums and nosebleeds. Skin diseases.

And who in this situation will not think: "If I knew ..."

"V a n d u c t i n a n d a n c h a n c a l i o n t i n u s u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u To that of the future. "

(Fodak)

AIDS

I must say about one more disease, which affects drug addicts first of all. It is not caused by the effects of drugs, the impact of drug addiction in this case is indirect. This is a disease that was called AIDS (acquired immunodeficiency syndrome). Disease, to overcome which medicine has not yet found a reliable means. The only way not to perish from AIDS: to avoid contracting this disease.

The disease occurs when a virus enters the human bloodstream, called HIV (human immunodeficiency virus).

The virus we are talking about is gradually destroying the immune system, that is, it destroys the cells that protect the body from bacteria. The situation can be compared to a besieged city, in which soldiers are dying out from a deftly deployed saboteur of slowly acting poison. There will not be a soldier - there will be no one to defend the city.

So it is here. I'm killing the "defenders" of the body. And many serious diseases that were previously "prevented" to develop protective cells, are now doing their destructive work unhindered. This period of the disease is called AIDS.

HIV infection can develop for several years. A person during this period sometimes does not experience serious health problems, but HIV will be transmitted from it to other people. It is transmitted only in two ways: through sex and through blood. For example: if the patient and healthy used for injections one, not disinfected, as it should be, a syringe.

Why did AIDS the most widespread among drug addicts? A drug-stoned person does not care about his safety. Wished intimacy with the girl - come on! A "girl" could previously have sex with some adult HIV-infected ... So another patient will appear. And - another possible source of infection of this severe and incurable to date illness. Somewhat reduces the risk of condom disease. But you still have to use it skillfully and accurately, otherwise it will not save you from HIV. However, in a state of drug intoxication, a person is not too inclined to be cautious ...

Use of a common syringe is also in the works of addicts. What if from sick to healthy? HIV will not miss the chance to hit a new victim!

No, not everyone gets AIDS, maybe this impure syringe was not used by the carrier of the ill-fated virus. Well, in this case the common syringe will not do harm?

Will bring! Most likely - will bring. A drug addict, even if he boils a syringe, more often does it unprofessionally (he does not follow the rules of hygiene, does not stand the time of boiling ...). But often the drug is injected with a generally used and not a boiled syringe! And than it can end? Than it often ends?

For example: septicemia. This is the name of this phenomenon in medicine. And this concept is deciphered simply and generally known: infection of blood. Hepatitis and other diseases can be transmitted through the blood. But back to AIDS. What kind of payment awaits a person if he is HIV-positive?

And the payment is: short and inferior - semi-invalid, and in due course - a disability life. Rarely, AIDS patients live to the age of thirty (if they have a disease in their youth). Think: is it worth hurrying to the next world?

"Zdorovye m edry gonoror".

(Beranger)

Mental disorders

Before that, it was about the physical suffering of a drug addict. But his psyche is even more vulnerable under the influence of drugs. Especially - in adolescents, on the transition from childhood to adulthood.

"Addiction is a kind of mental pathology," Gursky writes. That is, drug addiction is akin to insanity. The behavior of the addict clearly demonstrates mental inferiority.

I once happened to be in a train in one compartment with a young man who was under a drug "bald". Slobbering, with a meaningless look, muttering something inarticulate, rushes to go somewhere, but do not hold his legs - he flops again on the shelf, his hands all the while in incessant movement ... Even now at the "psycho"! And what kind of communication can he have with normal people? And in a group with the same drugged "buddies," he might have found a common language. Perhaps that's why drug addicts gather in "packs", where their ghost world and where absurd behavior does not seem ridiculous among their own.

And what: after such a condition, which I just described on my own observation, a person, coming out of a narcotic dope, will become quite normal? I doubt it.

Firstly, this "normality" will not last long - he will again be drawn to the drug as soon as he comes to himself. But even in this short period of "sobriety", he will not be able to regain full-fledged mental well-being and a full-fledged human kind.

Drug poisoning ... Every drug intake leaves its destructive trace in the body and in the human psyche. And the longer a person takes drugs, the deeper will be the destruction.

Drugs are literally all! - leave their black mark in the mental state of the addict. And more often lead to such mental deviations which are not cured and make the addict an invalid.

Imagine yourself: young, healthy, full of strength ... Imagine yourself a ruin with a dozen diseases, broken psyche and incurable disturbances in brain activity. And that's sixteen to twenty years old!

Addicts in the period of withdrawal (abstinence) behave differently, but always with abrupt deviations from the norm. Let me remind you of some examples of mental disorders.

One falls into depression, that is, he is possessed by a state of passive depression, hopelessness, he can lie for hours on the couch, disconnected from all activities, almost disconnected from life, in deep despair from the desperation of his situation.

The other is seized by anxiety, anxiety, fear, he rushes around the room, like a newly caught beast - in a cage, someone, it seems to him, pursues him, someone is about to overtake and cause him terrible evil ... Terrible than that evil, what The addict has done himself, it is impossible to imagine. But he is not aware of this, even he can not assess his own actions, and even more so - to criticize himself (this is not the case with healthy people).

Here is an excerpt from the notes of a drug addict, which Stanislav Gursky cites in his book: "An awful creature crawled to the stage in the form of a monkey-man. The human half froze in a posthumous mask with a closed eye, the monkey bared its fangs in a grin and blinked an eye red with blood. I blinked at me, like I was a tasty morsel for food ... "And further:" It seemed to me that I was cutting blood. "

In the state of narcotic intoxication, the ability to judge, the clarity and consistency of formulations is reduced. There is a violation of coordination, clarity and sequence of movements, the inability to perform small motor operations, imbalance, swaying, uncertain gait. The handwriting is changing. The speech changes: it can be extremely fast, "machine-gun", or - slow, indistinct, as if a person says "with porridge in your mouth."

Here is how the Strelkov describes the torment of the addict and his psychic shift:

"A withered man rushed about in a cot in a hospital room with barred windows. His body was beating convulsively. Covered with large drops of sweat. From time to time, convulsive urge to vomit began. The patient cried, cursed, pleaded, shouted in a wild voice:

- Save! I'm dying! Give heroin! Doctor, prick! Worms, white worms chew me! Take away the worms!

He shook off something invisible with disgust. And again he began to roll on the cot, growling with pain. "

The state of anxiety and fear, into which a drug addict falls, is not always limited to meaningless throwing in search of salvation from an incomprehensible danger. Sometimes this anxiety turns into aggression, the addict becomes malicious, he is seized by anger, anger against ...

Against who?

Yes against anyone who turns up on the arm.

Add to this that most of all in the world a drug addict wants one thing: his harmful poison is a drug. And if someone, it seems to him, can give money for a drug, but does not ...

Recently I read in the criminal chronicle how a drug addict was killed by a mother in order to take her pension and get a drug. Then he pricked and died of an overdose ...

The only case? Alas! In this abnormal fury, the brother kills his brother, and the son does not spare his father, and often strangers from the hands of the half-mad drug addict.

I will quote from the book of Urakova.

"The ladder leading to the hell of mental and physical suffering in the event of abstinence, consists of many steps, recalling which a former drug addict who has long ceased to take drugs, shudders many years later:" It is impossible even to come up with such torments to torment the human soul and flesh that We inflict ourselves! "

A drug addict under the influence of a drug can experience hallucinations, he seems to be asleep in reality, and hallucinations are his sweet dreams. Actually, in these pleasant dreams is the meaning of taking drugs.

But!

The fact is that hallucinations are not always pleasant. Sometimes an addict can dream an imaginary danger. Up to the point that someone ... Not "someone", but this person who was nearby, wants to kill him! And the addict himself will attack the alleged killer, and how this aggression ends is difficult to predict ...

Or it might seem that there is a fire in the house, and the poor fellow, "escaping from the fire," will jump out of the balcony or throw himself out of the window of any floor.

And - one more trouble. It happens (and often!) That "shifted" from the drug does not return to its normal state and after the drug has stopped. Mental disorder becomes chronic, and this can happen even after the first drug use in life! Does this happen to anyone? No, not with everyone. But can you guarantee that it is precisely with this that such misfortune will not happen ...

Here is what Urakov writes about this:

"The risk of psychosis during the first admission of drugs is higher the younger the age of the person who took the drug. Especially great is the threat of the development of psychosis with a single admission drug in adolescents. This is due to the fact that in the childhood and adolescence the psyche of the developing organism reacts particularly acutely to any toxic effects. This condition is characterized by greater severity and duration than in older people. "

What happens with the person? I will give an example from the book of Strelkov, who describes an episode in a psychiatric hospital:

"There were seven people in the ward (the teenage department) with windows covered with metal nets. Different in appearance and age. They were united by one thing: they were all drug addicts.

... - Come to us, Dima, - called the doctor of the one who was looking through the book.

Dima approached, holding his right hand to the hem of his robe.

Before us stood a creature resembling a little old man. A wrinkled, wrinkled face, thin neck, withered hands, fingers constantly trembling.

"Dima is fifteen lei," the doctor said, "I started using drugs with thirteen and a half." We received a few weeks ago. He, a little bit alive, was found in the basement of an apartment building in a state of immobility. From polyethylenes a package on the head, in which were the remains of an organic solvent.

"You led and could die," I told him.

Dima wrinkled his forehead, thinking what to say, blinked several times and finally said hoarsely:

- Well, duck that ... Little that's been ... I, you see, the boys forgot to call ...

- Dima, how much will it be if nine are divided into three?

The boy thinks hard, then hesitantly answers:

"Probably five ..."

In this example, the teenager suffered from substance abuse. But any drug can lead to a similar mental illness.

From the normal to become feeble-minded ... Do not be wild!

I will finish this chapter with the words of the famous German playwright and thinker Schiller:

"P r ot t u v t u v u v u v u v u v er s s s s e l s e d u d e g e y o u s".

Whether this dictum relates to you or not - decide for yourself.

Toxicomans

I told about the fate of Dima's toxicomanus in the previous chapter. Let's talk about this phenomenon in more detail.

Toxicomania differs from drug addiction only by substances that stupefy a person, and even in the way they are consumed. To that substance abuse is often a forerunner of drug addiction, many addicts become addicts later.

How does the "high" drug addict get? He picks up some odorous substance in the cellophane bag and, putting his nose into this bag, draws in poison vapors into his body. It would seem: Well, what's so special about this? They breathed a little tasteless this smell, they were flabbergasted ... And from this - harm to the body? It's not a drug!

You can call this drug chemistry or not a drug, but it brings harm completely narcotic. And first of all it hits the brain! Worst of all, the changes in brain cells that occur with substance abuse are uncommon. That is, they do not give in to any treatment. A normal teenager becomes, say softer, mentally handicapped.

Acquisition to the inhalation of poisons occurs in the companies of adolescents who are gathered in cellars, attics or other secluded places. Consciousness is disturbed from light to severe stunning. Attracts children not a state of stunning, but visual hallucinations, developing in intoxication.

At the beginning of poisoning, with a shallow confusion of consciousness, the teenager can still perceive the words addressed to him and even answer the question. But with further stunning, it seems to be immersed in sleep and disconnected from normal life. Consciousness disconnects more and more, in severe cases goes into a coma, that is, a complete loss of consciousness occurs. This condition threatens the life of the toxicomaniac, as breathing, blood circulation, all processes of vital activity of an organism are disturbed.

But not bringing himself to the point of losing consciousness, the toxicoman is poisoning his body. Outwardly this is manifested in the fact that his face turns red or, on the contrary, turns pale, the pupils dilate, the pulse becomes faster, the breathing becomes quicker, the feeling of dryness in the mouth appears. The walk becomes shaky, insecure, like a drunkard.

For the sake of what is poisoning your body? "Baldezh" manifests a short-term gaiety (and that - not always), hallucinations, disconnecting from all life's troubles and difficulties. However, many toxicomaniacs have very different feelings instead of gaiety: irritability, spitefulness, aggressiveness, dangerous for the drunk and surrounding actions. When a severe impairment of consciousness requires medical attention, otherwise the toxicomaniac can die.

This is the path of one toxicomaniac. Let's call him Andrew.

Andrei inflicted the first harm to his body in the fifth grade, starting to smoke. Slowly I dragged cigarettes from my father and smoked in the school closet with my peers and older children. One of the elders and "enlightened" the boy about substance abuse, invited "pobaltet" in an abandoned barn.

Toxicomania develops very quickly. Soon Andrew was drawn to smell the chemical poison daily. The group had to share these valuable sources of "bally" or "buzz" with other guys. And why are they to him? You can inhale after all, and alone, it is only necessary to find a secluded place.

Andrey's parents worked, at home there was an old and sick grandmother. Andrew, coming from school, locked himself in the toilet and "baldel". Six months after the first bahde Andrey left school. He became listless, apathetic, could spend hours in one position, doing nothing and not thinking about anything. And only the need to get a toxic dope returned him for a short time to active life.

Money parents did not give Andrei. And he found the same way out of the situation, as many others: he began to steal. Once he even went to robbery, but got caught. He was arrested.

Judge him did not. But it would be better to judge! Having served time, a person has a chance to return to normal life. Andrei did not have that chance. By that time, he had managed to poison his brain so much that he became idiot. In the medical language, his illness was called: toxic encephalopathy. To this were added diseases of the heart and liver.

So at the age of fourteen the boy became disabled and continued his life in a psychiatric hospital.

It would be possible here to expound the life stories of other toxicants, but they differ little from this. Toxic "beldage" almost always makes a teenager disabled.

However, many addicts do not survive even before disability. Toxic substances having a very different purpose, if inhaled, can cause dizziness or fainting, and the face - in a cellophane bag, the poison continues to enter the lungs ... And even without losing consciousness, the toxicomaniac does not always know how much to inhale the poison safely for life. Exceeded the critical time - and "boulder" will be the last.

"Mnogochok uudoganov a sesse, a ne tekh huzh dudogorazuma. P er of the u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u "

(Leo Tolstoy)

"We will be glad to see you," he said. "We have a lot of work to do, and we will continue to work with them."

(Epictetus)